Ups and Downs

Like being on a rollercoaster ride

Drastic ups and downs

Determined and reassured at some

Battered and miserable at others.



Blessed to be free and renewed

but also lost and feeling unwanted.

Still feel like it's all a bad joke

that tomorrow

maybe

it would be alright.



Nothing's right anymore.

Breath

that I will try.

But how do you fill a void

so large it swallows you whole?